29 September, 2011

puss plats

just a sweet thought for today.
i found this charming picture on elsa’s blog (one of my faves) and thought, wouldn’t it be nice if we had “puss plats” all over town?


since i have no such place, officially, may i suggest marking one of your own this weekend.
happy kissing…

28 September, 2011

she wanted something to happen -
     something, anything...she did not know what...
                                                                                                 kate chopin

                                                                                                                        

23 September, 2011

social grace


the 'sneak invite'. totally not cool.
why is it when you make plans with a friend they think it is okay to invite someone else along to join without checking with you first? do they not understand how this alters the social dynamic? do they not understand the demands on social reserves that engaging strangers requires? if you are not given to bursts of spontaneous friendliness …the sneak invite may demand herculean effort. sigh.
we can do it of course. we all can. we know how to tap into our stores of politesse and cocktail banter but it doesn’t mean that it is always preferable or enjoyable.
to be fair, being open to new people and perspectives is often good. indeed, twisting the dynamic leads to growth—both individual and social. but it is just plain polite to give notice. not all topics between friends are appropriate for an audience of strangers and it could get awkward.  who likes that?
please, just ask before you ask others. if it was a plan for two or a plan with a specific cast of characters, be courteous to those initially involved and allow them the option of extending the invitation…or not…  

22 September, 2011

coolest girls on the planet

i haven't been very inspired lately...until i saw this from rebecca & fiona's twitter feed




they are just the coolest girls on the planet right now. for real.
strong women playing to win in a man's game. i love it and love them for it!
they manage to be hot and fierce, smart and sexy, cool and effortless all at once. 
and they are really good at what they do.
really. seriously. good. admirably good.
 i am totally obsessed...


if you don't know them now...you need to get acquainted ...snabbt!
 they are headed for world domination.
trust.



13 September, 2011

miss me blind


even though i am enraged on a daily basis by the inequities of my female existence, i am always thankful to be a woman. i had another ‘whew…am i glad to be a woman’ moment last night.
i was vegging out in front of the tv and an ad for cialis came on. now, normally i don’t really pay attention to ads much less ones clearly not targeted to my own demographic, but i was totally mesmerized by this one.
an attractive middle-aged couple together shopping at the grocery store, gently and smilingly fondling produce…of course, inspiring an intimate moment; suddenly they embrace and now the supermarket is a wooded glen, and that orange display? poof! now it’s a picnic blanket and our couple lies down on it, gazing deeply into each other eyes. this totally happens to me at the safeway. All. The. Time. i was cracking up.
but the part that really caught me was when the voice-over ran down the side effects…ummm…BLINDNESS anyone??? apparently taking cialis may have a ‘sudden and severe’ side effect of freaking blindness! so, there’s your choice droopy…blindness or a boner. wow. am i glad to be a woman. because you know the guys taking cialis (and there are quite a few of them…insurance covered, of course, don’t even get me started on that…god forbid a man lose his potency…what evil would befall us??) i digress…you know the guys taking cialis are seriously willing to risk losing their sight just to get an erection.
that is devotion to a, ahem, member, for sure.

09 September, 2011

be the woman you want to be

so direct. so simple. so true.

DvF...she's certainly the woman she wants to be. beautiful, bright, ambitious and strong - she is living proof of her credo.

be the woman you want to be...you can decide to be who or what you want to be whenever you like. this is your life to live. you can change who you want to be without apology or concession. no more waiting for tomorrow, no more postponing, procrastinating or hiding behind arbitrary markers or excuses.  fear not... just be...right here and right now...

believe it and be it.

photo credit: vogue.com

06 September, 2011

what we call the beginning is often the end.
and to make an end is to make a beginning.
the end is where we start from.

                                                           - t. s. eliot  

photo credit: film still of the unbearable lightness of being

05 September, 2011

i was gone and now i'm back

suddenly it's september...it came out of nowhere it seems...the end of summer and the beginning of autumn. for me (and many others) it is like a mini new year with that hard to shake back-to-school feel in the air and in my heart. looking back the summer flew by but it was a good one. it was full of people i love, friends i haven't seen in ages, dancing, long lazy days with family here and back home and even the soothe of the ocean. it was a happy and fortunate season...i am reluctant to let go and jump into fall but there is really no choice. life moves forward, marching on despite our longings and laggings.

a short re-cap of what-i-wore and some things i did this summer.

17 August, 2011

nu tar jag en semester






much needed break from the daily grind starts now...










                                        i am going hOme...  can't come soon enough...  so homesick...  for family, for friends, for food, for sleep, for the lake... oh i am so homesick.... so i am going hOme...



16 August, 2011

15 August, 2011

nothing is perfect. life is messy. relationships are complex. outcomes are uncertain. people are irrational.
                                                                                         hugh mackay




photo courtesy of f*** yeah edie

12 August, 2011

life lesson



yes and no
two of the shortest and simplest words in english are often not our most obvious choices.
sometimes we say one when we mean the other…sometimes we feel like we have to say one when we want to say the other.
practice using yes or no when we mean yes or no.
saying yes is agreeing to what we believe in or things we want to do, accepting invitations when we mean it, feeling good about helping someone or just yes, because our feelings tell us it is right for us, here and now.
saying no is refusing to lie, declining invitations we don’t want, passing on things we don’t feel good about or just no because our feelings tell us it is wrong for us, here and now.
learning to trust your own feelings of yes and no; what feels right and what feels wrong is the beginning of credibility. people will trust that you say what you mean and mean what you say.
two simple words open the doors to freedom. it is the start of owning your life and controlling where it goes.  

01 August, 2011

dating games



ten men waiting for me at the door?
send one of them home. i'm tired.

             -mae west

30 July, 2011

smile or die

for me, the streets of DC are every bit as ribald as my experiences in Rabat and Rome. lots of cat-calls, obscene whispers, vulgar comments and often more vulgar requests… it was mind-blowing when i moved back to the states and felt more scrutinized and vulnerable to men’s gazes and remarks than ever before; from Italy mind you. and i am blonde
in my time here, i have endured daily jeers and leers running the gamut of men: from the street junkie to the pleated-front-khaki hill staffer to the most interestingly inspired garbage collector, all feel perfectly at ease announcing aloud their latent desires. i have heard some things that embarrassed me, sickened me, angered me and in general just annoyed me. i have long resented that i cannot walk the streets undisturbed in my own world and thoughts without a reliable reminder that i am female and thus, not privy to the glorious male possession of unquestioning entitlement that apparently includes sidewalks as well as the boardroom. but i digress…
but above all the lewd and piggish things i have heard nothing irks me quite so much as the simple command to “smile”.  i have posted about this before. i am not a smiler and it seems i live in a world where not smiling is sure sign that i am a deviant in desperate need of man to please. my blood boils when through the blare of my ear-buds; over the dull rumbling of traffic i hear “smile”. immediately my fists clench, my eyes narrow and my lips press more tightly together. no chance of so much as a smirk from me. why is it so necessary to smile?
i personally have a theory that it is a way to neutralize power in a woman. i walk with purpose, my broad shoulders squared, my head held high. i look like i have somewhere to go and something serious to do when i get there. is that so threatening? remember how popular Laura Bush was? every photo or film clip i saw of her, she wore that open-eyed blank smile. soft and gentle, she gazed adoringly at her husband. she was the ultimate supporting actress and her ever present smile assured us she liked it like that. no, she didn’t convey ambition or drive, just unwavering support for her man.
maybe i am over-analyzing a pet peeve. i stand by my cultural bias element in my previous post. however, i do find it curious in country that refuses to elect women to office in equal representation, we do want them to look happy about it.
photo: isabel marant scarf courtesy of netaporter.com

28 July, 2011

here come roly and poly


my mormor had strong opinions and severe tastes. one of her strongest and most severe was her distaste for the overweight or “fatties”, as she so often referred to anyone carrying more than five pounds of voluptuous curve. She did not censure her displeasure or contempt in any way or with any effort. on the contrary, she made comments like “i don’t know who is winning the contest for the fattest, mary or beth but they doing their damnedest to win” or my favorite, when looking out the window and seeing my two PREGNANT aunts walking up to her front door, she looked at me and said with dripping disgust, “well, nail down your cookies, here come roly and poly”.
she wasn’t playing around with fat people. even when a cancerous mass ravaged her body and sealed her fate, i knew her resentment was less about the football sized tumor that was destroying her body and ending her life, she was angrier that the tumor destroyed her waistline and ended her days of cinching her 24 inch waist. vanity thy name was mormor.
contrary to your expectations, she was a healthy and voracious eater of almost all foods. the richer, the dearer…she ate desserts at every meal and sometimes as a meal in themselves. at christmas the house was a cookie factory, reeking of butter, sugar and cardamom. cakes, pies, tortes, cookies…ice cream, whipped cream, custard…she devoured with relish. she loved the rarest of red meat, developed a great fondness for american fried chicken and biscuits in her later years. she ate almost anything and everything…i remember sharing deeply rubied plums, strawberries so red they stained fingertips and tongues, shaved fennel tossed with tomatoes from her garden…she taught me that everything tasted better fresh and grown close to home.
while she denied herself nothing, she was always lean as a whip. she attributed her tall, hourglass shape to her superior swedish genes and also to eating “real” food. she said (what Michael Pollan is frankly saying as well) that she ate things that looked as much like they did in nature as good cooking would permit. that her pastries and puddings and other ‘godis’ were homemade from farm fresh ingredients. she swore up and down that americans were fat because they bought things to eat and not real food, to cook at home. i think she was on to something and it seems that most health educators agree.
you know that i talk about reinvention and adaptation quite a bit…but when it comes to what we eat, keeping it in its original state seems to be the superior choice.

27 July, 2011

social grace

so about that polite refusal to your invitation...just take "no" for an answer!

this invitation/rsvp thing is a two way street. if i decline your thoughtful and generous invite, please just accept my refusal. no more of this "beg and plead" that happens so often. it doesn't make the offer more appealing, but it does annoy me in the present and decrease the likelihood that i will accept in the future.

when i was living abroad, one aspect of my job was to give little workshop-seminars on cultural nuance. this invite/refusal was a topic we revisited on many occasions. i am afraid this is one of those annoying cultural nuances particular to some. if a french person asks you to dinner and you reply by saying: sorry, non, i can't tonight, the issue is halted. no hurt feelings; just moving on... if we had that same conversation here in the states my sorry, no, is more often than not met with: "really? why? do you have other plans? what are they?"...or even worse..."awww c'mon...just one drink... are you suuuuure?"

the beg and plead. please do not press me about my refusal, but graciously consent in the same stride you would approve my acceptance. then you will have a chance at a next time...

21 July, 2011

life lesson

if money can fix it—it isn’t really broke….
a gem of advice from my mother…if you can solve the problem with money, it isn’t a problem worth worrying about.
so very true. often we worry and stress over problems that can be simply addressed by replacing something, hiring someone or getting something new. the point is, we fixate on the material which can almost always be replaced.
true, it is sad when our grandmother’s cake plate slips off the counter and shatters in a million pieces, but at least you have a memory of your grandmother using it and the comfort of knowing she wanted you to have something nice of hers to remember her by; which is really why you loved the cake plate anyway.
better to let go and let live than throw a betty draper style fit over a glass of red wine spilling on the table cloth. what will you take with you from that scene at dinner? a wonderful evening shared with loved ones, or the hysterical ranting of an angry host? over what? something that can be washed and remedied or just replaced.
sometimes we may not have the money to fix what is broken. that is okay. take stock of the simple fact that there is an apparent solution and calm the worry.
case in point: i loved my car. loved it. it was the car i learned to drive on (a feat worth its own post) and was a gift from my mother during one of my first grad programs. i had it for ten years and never had so much as a fender bender. my ex-boyfriend borrowed it once and within thirty seconds of turning the key in the ignition managed to have a head-on crash. i watched the whole debacle in what felt like slo-mo helpless from the curb. was i sad? yes. was i frustrated? yes. but I took a deep breath and immediately dialed my mechanic and the next day it was repaired. it was never the same again (the hood always needed two to open it) but it wasn’t worth a fight with my boyfriend or even holding a grudge. i didn’t really have the money to fix it being an impoverished grad student at the time, but the reality was, my boyfriend was unharmed and it was an incident that could have escalated quickly but quelled by remembering it was just a car.
it isn’t the objects in our life that make it better. repairing relationships, emotions, boundaries…those are the things that are worth our attention. those are the issues that are trickier to solve and are deserving of hard work and worry. protecting our relationships, feelings and friends is where our attention should lie. those are the elements that make the things in our life worth having.

20 July, 2011

finish each day and be done with it. you have done what you could.
some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can.
tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.

ralph waldo emerson


12 July, 2011

social grace

it's an invitation...not a summons darling...

an invitation is just that: a request, a suggestion, an option. it is not a requirement (except in the case of most funerals, family weddings i mean, obviously, you should know the difference).

this is a murky area for me historically. i have never treated invitations as an automatic confirmation of my attendance. nor do i feel my rsvp's require anything further than a simple acceptance or refusal.

no wild tales of other obligations, just a simple-  sorry i can't make it, hope your (blank) is a wild success, total blast, etc. etc.

i feel it is just more polite to be clear, direct, firm and prompt in my replies. why get lost in subterfuge when simplicity serves the purpose? the same is true for an acceptance. it is polite and thoughtful to let the host/hostess/organizer get an accurate idea of who is coming and who is not.

i had an old boyfriend who marveled at my speed and willingness to refuse invitations. he cautioned that they would "dry up"...not hardly! no one wants a recalcitrant-rebecca at their gathering; don't attend unless it is willingly and with good cheer. and if you can't be in the appropriate spirit, the only polite thing to do is to graciously decline.

life is so much less complicated this way. do what you want and be a good guest-- you will always be back in demand!

30 June, 2011

födelsedag

Everything one does in life, even love, occurs

in an express train racing toward death. To

smoke opium is to get out of the train while

it is still moving. It is to concern oneself with

something other than life or death.
today is my birthday...excuse me while i hop off the train to celebrate

25 June, 2011

bridge of sighs

Love. Of course, love. Flames for a year, ashes for thirty.
Giuseppi di Lampedusa

life lesson



magical knowing

people are not mind-readers. even the ones that love you and know you best. no one can just magically know your thoughts and feelings.

this is a common theme with my couple-clients. so many disputes and grudges originate with one of the partners feeling slighted because the other did not "know" what they wanted/meant/felt just by looking at them or being with them.

it's a lovely idea that our most intimates know us so well they can read our minds. sometimes it may even seem like they can. but the truth is they can't; no one can. if you want something or are feeling something and need someone to know or to react to it, you must tell them.

telling them doesn't mean being bossy or directive or overbearing. it just means stating what you are thinking in a clear, direct and non-blaming way. how can we get what we want unless people know what it is?

now, if this doesn't work and your wishes are ignored, well, that is another "life lesson" post.

22 June, 2011

hur är det svensk?


Went to Nordic food event at Masa 14 tonight. Pic is from the walk over...just a shot of me looking disgusted by the incredible construction in my neighborhood. Tried for a good shot of my awesome Gaultier frock but alas...not so awesome angle.
Not sure what was so "Swedish" about it but it was good. I was really looking forward to a twist on tradition but it wasn't exactly that. I think the only thing Swedish tonight was me. Maybe the chef?
In any case ...it was a good way to keep the midsommar feste going. Heja sommar!
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en été, je pense à-t-elle...

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it's finally really summer. midsommar was yesterday so it is official.
whenever it gets steamy and the sun blazes i think of jean seberg. i don't know why other than i used to read "bonjour tristesse" every summer while lying on the beach. i thought it made me look as glamorous as cecile seemed to be.  watching "a bout de souffle" always made me feel warm too, now that i think about it.
two of my favorite summer love stories. light, to be sure, but still thoughtful and substantive.

pictures (mostly) from cracked actress

17 June, 2011